I don't actually like *coffee,* but that's ok

I got my football tickets! I was starting to worry that they weren't going to get here in time. They're so pretty. I just need to buy more things that match with blue and maize.

My brother today told me we were going to learn to drive at the same time. Heck no! Now I'm determined to get this taken care of.

I saw Heroes the other night. I didn't find it impressive as people say, but there was a cute moment when this guy got this book for this girl about mutation or something, all on his own, without her asking. And then, I was watching Gilmore Girls, and Lorelei's car dies, and she doesn't want a new one she wants her old one, so Luke goes online, finds a car that's hers exactly, goes to the guy who owns it, tests drives it, and figures out the way to switch engines. And this is all after her and Luke have broken up. Without her asking him to do this. Guys should take notes. Because that's when we know you really like us. : P

My parents got me Cinnamon Roll Poptarts. A-maz-ing.

I'm going through social withdrawal. The only time I managed to leave the house all day today was when we went out to dinner because it was raining all day long. : ( I am *yearning* to be back at school, where it's like camp, and you're surrounded by people 24/7 and your friends are always within walking distance. But Heather's coming to visit tomorrow, and we're going to see Shakespeare in the Park and go to the top of the Empire State Building and watch lots of movies. I'm excited.

I'm also excited about these football tickets, have I mentioned that?

I hope you know

Have you ever had your perception radically changed? Completely, irrevocably, dangerously changed? People like to live in the middle. There are some things I just can't do that on. What do you do when what your heart tells you to do conflicts with what everyone else tells you to do? What if those people are people you trust and love? Do you ever break your resolve and back down? What if no one wants you to be extreme anyway?

Some things just matter too much. But people don't understand why you wouldn't want to play safe...

The Transforming Power of Film

Well, I'm back from camp. No more sleepouts. No more almost stepping on frogs in the middle of the night. No more star gazing. No more showering with insects. No more Bible Exs or devotions or awesome campers. No more cookouts and ice cream and worship Tuesday night. No more songfests. No more counselor hunts. No more bird names. No more of a lot of things. Until next summer, that is. Cross my fingers.

I didn't get much writing done this summer. Waaay too busy. I've got a few ideas though, so we'll see how it goes in the next couple of weeks.

So I have a friend whose friend had a life changing experience with a movie. He saw Transformers, and it's inspired him. To do what, you might ask.

Join the Air Force.

I don't know whether to be encouraged or exasperated, really. It is, at the very least, revealing, I think. Obviously I'm going to have to see Transformers eventually. On a similar writing note, I got my gentle let down from the Nicholls. I finished Script Frenzy with a horrendous script. So I'm feeling a little pressure to make this next script, if not good, at least a story that I like.

Ready

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

- "Hey There Delilah" Plain White T's

I think we lost Hawk

Normally, it doesn't take 2 days to travel from Indiana to Albany. Apparently, I am just the special exception.

When I got back, all the Explorer counselors ran out of Pooh Corner saying "Capri! Capri!" and jumping up and down. It was precious. And the girls in my tent had punkd my bed with tulle and given me cute craft presents (as CILTS they have to give away all the crafts they make. Lucky CILT counselor! :) )

It's my last week of camp. It's sorta a strange week. We have a drama camp, and instead of counseling the few few girls we actually have attending, I'm on the "core staff" for drama week. It'll be interesting.

I'm starting to write a little more. Getting back into the habit. Trying to find my voice and style, which is what I think I've been struggling with the past couple of projects and why I've been so unsatisfied with them.

This is the last normal day off I'm going to have. It makes me a little sad, but I've also pretty much decided today that the default plan for next summer is to come back. It's that awesome.

Firsts

First canceled flight ever. Like staying overnight in the airport in England, not nearly as romantic as I had hoped it'd be. Still, with a few connections and quick phone calls, I'm staying in one of the nicest hotels in Washington DC. Thanks, Shonda! : )

: )

These back steps are steeper to the ground
The brightest stars are falling down
I'm walking the edge, walking the tightest rope
We can be frank, reality rips on through, rolling like a hurricane
I'm over the bridge and under the rain

If everything's falling, if everything's changed
If I'm in the open, if I'm in the way

What am I doing here
If you're not with me?
What have I got to live for, if it's just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start
When gravity's pulling, you're still holding my heart
You come crashing down
Crashing down

These four walls are closing in on me
The talk is louder than I'll sing
I want to be there, want to be where you are
But you know it all, every look and smile that aren't meant to break
I'm over the bridge and under the rain

If everything's falling, if everything's changed
If I'm in the open, if I'm in the way

What am I doing here
If you're not with me?
What have I got to live for, if it's just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start
When gravity's pulling, you're still holding my heart
You come crashing down

And you say that everything is different, why don't we just hold on
And you say everything is different, why don't we just hold on
Crashing down

- "Crashing Down" by Mat Kearney

I need shoe glue

Week Three is over. I'm floating next week which means I don't have to worry about being in charge of a tent. It's a little nice.

I think we may have the only job where it's important to take your flashlight with you on your day off.

God reminded me this week my joy is in Him.

I think I may have missed my parents on the way to Saratoga if they thought they were meeting me up at camp today. You don't realize how important cell phone reception is until you lose it.

Friends are amazing in the ways that they see your needs and respond to them almost before you yourself know what's going on.

Power outages and counselor hunts included, best week of camp so far! And Lindsay's here! : D

I finished a full week of camp with real campers! Heather found my camera back in Indiana. I've never laughed so hard in my life. My friend and I are the same person (she even uses In the Rain!) except that she has a cute Boston accent - and likes the Red Soxes. I got to help replace a platform tent's waterproof tarp in the pouring rain while balancing on the supports. I got to act in a songfest instead of watch one. My adopted soldier sent me a letter! My week one campers figured out my real name because I speak in third person way to much. I haven't written a word since the end of Script Frenzy. We spent too much time last night discussing how best to capture/kill the five mice we saw in Pooh's Corner. I remembered it's worth falling into.